Best of Africa.

Trip to Egypt, Africa.
Going with Dr. Alice King & family and Laurie & Wendy.
Should be a blast, minus the bed bugs.

Beautiful

This girl, this lady, woman, this angel. Her name, Alyssa. Her hair, a dark brown silk. Her smile, incredibly contagious. And her eyes, her best feature, like two fluttering butterflies.

With our eyes locked and a mutual smile exchanged, my heart became captivated; my soul constantly haunted by her.

Strangely I feel great joy for her even though she is taken. Taken by some incredibly lucky man. No man should be so lucky, so endowed, to have such a beautiful creature to hold in his arms.

Here's to what might've been, what should've been, and what never will be. Here's to the most beautiful, inside and out, Native American Scottish woman. The most incredible girl on earth.

Have a good life.

2009 - the year i woke up.

In March 2009 i learned, realized, that im selfish and loveless. Im so incredibly self-centered without a care in the world for friend or family. Looking back thru all the years proves it. There is no doubt that im the worst human being alive.

So now i suffer the great pain that is lovelessness - the lack of love. This absense had not been known before. But for a moment i had the grace of knowing this beautiful thing. And now that beauty is gone, and so now I suffer the loss. It left a giant chasm, a gian crater of emptiness. So now my life is not in balance. I am now aware. And it hurts. It hurts like hell.