a song by Starfield

i'm listening to this song All For you by Starfield. it's an awesome song with uplifting qualities. the chorus goes something like this....

it's all for you, it's all for you,
i'm letting go, i'm letting go,...

these lyrics makes me really think about things, like my status relative to God. but i'm hesitant to let go. how is it humanly possible to let it all go for the sake of a God that we can not see nor touch? i tell you it is not humanly possible. it requires a divine intervention. and what if some people are not ready to be affected by the divine? what if some people will never be ready? and what if some people are chosen by the divine to never be influenced (or saved) by that same divine power?

it is the darkness that draws us to the light. makes sense doesn't it? i've been painted on, lied to, and spat on. demons in hell must be dancing around knowing they've got me in the palms of their hand. you see, i should've wielded my sword and shield long ago when i saw the enemy frontlines on the horizon. but i've procrastinated. i've underestimated, as always. but in a final attempt in desperation i'm wielding my sword now. this is a spiritual war, and let me tell you, it is bloody.

going back to the book of Romans.