you know that feeling of discovering something, like a revealing explanation to a mystery, or an answer to a riddle, or something new about a person you know?
well, i just discovered something like that. it is something about myself. it's as if i've been hiding from myself, or hiding in denial. it's also pretty creepy, kinda like the movie Hide and Seek.
i learned that i tend to give the cold-shoulder. not exactly betray, or desert, or abandon. but more like ignore, channel out, and evade. i'm not going to cop out on this and say that i'm misunderstood, because this can be understood. i think as usual, i can trace the roots to this newly discovered trait of mine to selfishness, self-centeredness, and pride.
i've been feeling the effects of this lately. after knowing this truth about me, all of my pains now suddenly have an origin, and i can finally understand and finally accept the fact that i am fully deserving of the said pains.
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