In March 2009 i learned, realized, that im selfish and loveless. Im so incredibly self-centered without a care in the world for friend or family. Looking back thru all the years proves it. There is no doubt that im the worst human being alive.
So now i suffer the great pain that is lovelessness - the lack of love. This absense had not been known before. But for a moment i had the grace of knowing this beautiful thing. And now that beauty is gone, and so now I suffer the loss. It left a giant chasm, a gian crater of emptiness. So now my life is not in balance. I am now aware. And it hurts. It hurts like hell.
