Life, and time, is moving much too expediently. The calendar revolves ever too swiftly these days. Though life is much more than just complaints, what with a very nice paying job at Microsoft doing what i fairly enjoy and a new and exciting love relationship, i doubt i could ask for much more.
And now suddenly i am at a crossroads.
In a few months, this engagement, this beautiful woman with all of her mysteries, her talents, her smiles, laughters, and her attitudes, painful memories, and flaws... Her all, and all of my flaws, my all, will be as one. Could this be happening? Am i dreaming? It is still so very surreal.
Every once in a while i am reminded that i am still deeply entrenched in pride, in sin. Today i felt my heart skip a few beats as if its begging to gasp for air. It's funny how a few words, or the lack of them, could cause such a haunting pain.
And to think that if i had heard those words repeated to me as i said the same, my heart would've found a simple but comforting joy. Or perhaps it wouldve felt nothing and taken the whole situation for granted. It would take eons to satisfy the wonder as the mind runs through the permutations of outcomes. Instead, i did not hear a reply. It is highly likely that i deserved this torture somehow, though i can hardly imagine what.
But all it would've taken to satisfy this little, hollow heart to no end is just but four words,
"I love you too."
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